Can you feel life?

What does it mean to truly experience life? 

Does, without sound, life become a series of pictures?  And without sight, life becomes a series of sounds?  How do our senses affect our perceptions of life and living and those around us? 
Close your eyes, can you feel life?


And yet, I do not know my destination.

Tomorrow does not exist until it is here.  All we have for certain is today.  We have now.  We do not own yesterday; it belongs to the past.  We have now, and that is enough. Something needs to break.  Chains need to loosen.  Prisoners to our own thoughts, we must be set free.  Run toward Him who created us. 


Something on my mind lately:  the concept and act of waiting.  We must wait patiently for the Lord and He will hear our cry and answer.  But while we are in that 'waiting' stage - that moment between 'do' and 'don't', 'stay' and 'go' - we are locked into a space which is untouchable, intangible, unrecognisable, living between the tension of leaving and going, rising and falling. It is unbearable sometimes.  How can we find a balance between the past and future, and better yet, how can we dive deeper, fuller and become more resonant and knowledgeable human beings in the meantime - in the process of leaning and waiting?  Waiting:  we are where we have never been and where we never will be again, and yet we hope for more.  We wait, perhaps, for something bigger than ourselves.  What if all we ever needed was now.  Now is, in fact, all we need - so long as God is wrapped into and glorified in that moment.  I ache for Him.  For His perfection, for His beauty.  I desire to become so entangled in His Holiness that most feeling for this world drips off my mind like an icicle on summer days.


 On another (and more superficial) note! I've been spilling countless thoughts into my journal in the past few months but have neglected sharing any of them here... life becomes busy, procrastination takes the front seat and somehow I forget my deep love for blogging amidst life's hustle.  Here's to bright and beautiful beginnings

All my love xx

droplets from my journal


a collection of photographs from lately. 

1.  Never lose your sense of wonder.  Dream always.  Pursue always.  Hope always.  Laugh always.  Love always.  Rejoice always.   

2.  Sit and soak; lap and listen.  The air is milky and soft; the sun is clouded.  We wonder if the softness will last, the lapping, licking, slapping, kissing of the waves to the shore will rush into eternity, into entirety, or vaporise and fall away. The sun glows.  She aches to be appreciated, to be basked in. We pull her into our faces, tearing off layers of clothing to sit in her splendour.  Exist slowly, live softly, dream intentionally. 

3.  Things which are always a good idea:  Dancing; a warm autumn evening, candles, a big cup of tea, a journal and pen and an outpouring of thoughts and dreams; trips to the ocean; laughing till it hurts (with friends, by yourself, or at yourself); reading the Bible; home-made pizza and a favourite smoothie; buying plants and gardening; running, biking, swimming; deep conversations; travelling; worshipping! praising! praying! 

4. Everything from within manifests itself without.  The inner being is a mere reflection of the outward being - of habits, of behaviour, of lifestyle, of doing and laughing and talking.  It is of uttermost importance to acknowledge and nurture the inner being, to empty ourselves so that we may be filled with the Spirit, open to this earth, ourselves, others.  Ask Him to empty you of your desires, your dreams, thoughts, to-do lists and self-centred ideas. Receptiveness increases the more empty we are: Our surrounding become more vivid, more saturated with life and meaning because we see not thought the lens of our being and our selfishness but through the lens of God's grace and Spirit.   Emptiness is crucial because it provides the capacity to be filled.   Likewise - the more we give, the more we have the capacity to receive.  

5. The eradication of self, the release, the falling, the dripping, the dropping, the undoing - all for a higher purpose.  Contemplating what it means to empty in order to fill, to lose in order to find, to fall in order to rise. The world leaks with paradoxes and perhaps this is the most grand and mysterious of them all:  That in order to find ourselves we must first lose ourselves.  Brokenness and emptiness yields abundant blessings and goodness if only we seek God above all else.

6.  My heart is constantly tethered between 'I need more routine and stability in my life' and 'I crave endless messy and honest conversations, getting lost in the middle of nowhere, falling deeply in love and travelling the world and living each day wildly, honestly and intentionally'.  Forever caught between a strong mind and a fragile heart (unknown) 

7. And so the endless process; dream, breathe, do, repeat.

Stay curious.  Stay strong.  Seek Your creator.  Live honestly, intentionally and with zest. 

xx Acacia 

be still.

it is in the silence of day to day life we find God; it is in the stillness that we can discover the depths of His great love.  busyness attempts to steal our glance, rip away a slow, content lifestyle and draw our focus to our to-do lists, friends and materialistic possessions.  in the stillness, find God.  take time each day to sit, ponder, dwell, understand, wonder and perhaps laugh or cry at the mercy and love of God.  Praise Him.  

Be still and know that I am God.

Be still and know that I am.

Be still and know.

Be still.  

 Be still before the LORD, all mankind, because he has roused himself from his holy dwelling. Zechariah 2:13
Be still, and know that I am God! I will be honored by every nation. I will be honored throughout the world.  The LORD of Heaven’s Armies is here among us; the God of Israel is our fortress.  Psalm 46:10-1 
Tear yourself away from day-to-day distractions and sit in His love now; soak in His presence; glorify His name.