cozy + thoughts


cozy /   Everything seems heavy, hushed and silent. The fire flickers and a twig snaps.  I cross my legs and stare; it's dark but beautiful; I close heavy eyelids and scoot closer to the fire.

thoughts /   My life has been mixed up and heavy lately.  Thoughts swirl around in my mind like flames licking kindling.  My mum is expecting a sixth child (due in December) and I'm (kinda sorta) finding it hard to accept: I like quiet, tidy, grown-up life, not crying babies, a lot more responsibility and staying awake in the night.  But I'm attempting to live up to my own words; reminding myself that life is precious and delicate and that every moment should be savoured.  I'm reminding myself that it's okay.  A baby is a gift from God and life will get better; life is better when you smile and praise God in the midst of the storm. Despite the hard aspects of having a little one around, I'm anticipating cradling and celebrating this new, little life. 

Blogging, taking photos, getting away on my own, crying into my pillow, clutching and sipping big cups of lemon and ginger tea, long walks and praying have been some of my escapes to life's hardships.  What are some of your escapes?

xxx a.

p.s. thoughts on the new header?

27 comments

  1. love this! so, so, pretty. :)

    p.s.- love your header!!! :D

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  2. This is lovely, Acacia! Really. :) {And congrats on another brother/sister! :)} Although I do know what you mean, I would love to have a little person running around the house. *sigh* ;) Your words are lovely, girl. God is always there... what a relief!

    xo, mikailah

    www.maid4him.blogspot.com

    -p.s--new header=beautiful. :)

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  3. Very beautiful, both pictures and words. The new header is... the BOMB! (I usually don't use words like that, but I just really like the header. :)

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  4. the header is so cute! and I know exactly what you mean, over the summer we got 3 little boys and I just had mixed feelings. we've had them for 5 mo. now and sometimes it's easy. some days are so hard, this week has been just difficult, and I've found myself in tears to many times. my little excapes have mostly been in tears at night, endless journaling, and large cups of earl grey.

    this was just what I needed right now.

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  5. precious girl, i know how you feel. i'm now one of eight, and whenever my mom would announce another little one on the way, it made me more upset than happy. a baby is a lot of work and stress for everyone, but also a blessing. i don't know what i would do without any one of my precious siblings, and that period where they're babies goes by faster than you think. chin up, buttercup :) xo

    p.s. my favorite escape thus far would have to be reading. there's a whole other world inside every book cover, after all.

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  6. the new header is lovely. (: as far as escapes go, a good book and a cup of tea, pinterest, and those few quiet moments at night when everyone else is asleep.

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  7. Your post, your header- I gasped and am in complete awe. I love this incredibly, and you, and I'll be praying for you lovey.
    xoxo

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  8. Great work lady!! I especially love the last shot.
    YOUR NEW HEADER IS AMAAAZING.
    xo

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  9. super cute new header! I know how you feel. I'm the second of eight children, and have harbored those thoughts of perhaps not being so excited of all the work that comes with having a new sibling. It's hard, but children are such a joy and a blessing from the Lord. It's unkind for us to even think those thoughts, yet we do. I will pray for you, as I can understand how you feel. Remember how the Lord forms each child in the womb. He knits them and knows them intimately and all the plans he has for them...and chooses the perfect family for them. It's really so so special. Who are we to not want what he has so graciously given us. Time will fly and you'll find yourself longing for the little precious bundle of joy when he/she is grown.

    Blessings!

    ~Madi

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  10. in love with the third and fourth photos so much!
    and your new header is lovely. it reminds me of today, when i spilled coffee on my bag of goldfish, and yet, the milky-brown stains added a little bit of...character to the kiddish (and yet delicious) snack. :)

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  11. Gorgeous photos, my dear! Beautiful.
    Congratulations for your mom! I am the oldest of 9 and I used to feel the way that you do sometimes. But I got over it. Sure there's a lot of work and helping out that comes along with having a new baby in the house, but it's such a lovely thing. Babies bring a different spirit into the home. A beautiful, innocent spirit. (I quite adore it)
    Time goes by so fast. Cherish every moment.

    Fantastic header, darling! <3 I love it. (what program/site did you use to create it?)

    Best wishes and blessings,
    ~Kate

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    1. Thank you so much for you sweet comment! :) ...To answer your question, I used picmonkey.com to create the header.

      Have a lovely day!

      xx Acacia | capture life

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  12. ALL THESE ARE SUCH GORGEOUS PICTURES!!!!

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  13. these photos and your header are stellar; you are amazing.
    and i'll be praying for you to see better days, dear. love you. xx

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  14. oh gosh, i guess life doesn't go the way we want it all the time, but it's just the way it is right? Just keep praying :) though, it would be really fun to have a little sibling, right? by the way, these are just amazing photos, wonderful post xx
    -Jianine

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  15. I LOVE your design! It's so beautiful and I desperately want to steal it and run away cackling. ;) I understand how you feel about a new sibling :) I'd suggest you get involved with the preparations, it really helps you to get excited about what's to come and feel more of a part of things. Something else I'd suggest is put up a poster in your house and split it into yourname/genderofbaby/weightofbaby and do a kind of a competition. It's great fun, it's like "How many sweets in a jar" but a "What gender and what weight is the baby" version! :)
    Something else we also did, was me and my brother got a shoebox and decorated it- then we filled it with things we wanted to give the baby, I'd suggest things that the baby would like now, like a small cuddly toy as well as notes and things that they'd really like when they grow up! Something special :)

    Chin up :) I'll be praying
    Kimmy x

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  16. I just have to sigh in delight while staring at your gorgeous photographs. The third is especially wonderful.

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  17. Just found your blog and how lovely it is. Stunning photography!

    Good luck transitioning to a new family situation. It is ok to feel a little trepidation and to acknowledge those feelings. Sometimes joy can be mixed with fear - but that is only a testimony to the power of our emotions and the awesomeness of the event. Good luck and I hope all goes well!

    Blessings!

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  18. this is beautiful, Acacia!!! your photographs are just stunning.

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  19. Love the header! I especially liked the pine cone picture. Good luck transitioning!
    Emma
    http://emmavogelsang.blogspot.com

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  20. the new header is great. i think it says much...in a good way. i love tidy and quiet, too. good luck with the new baby sibling.

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  21. BRILLIANT BY ALL MEANS!
    i love everything about your blog - no matter how you make it look, no matter what you post!
    sooo inspirational xx

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    1. and a 6th!!
      don't worry about the slightest thing - a new sibling is definitely a gift from God.
      i'm sure you'll be the greatest big sister <3

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  22. Such lovely photos, you're so talented! And I hope you feel better soon, it'll take getting used to but I'm sure it'll work out! I usually go for a jog when I'm frustrated, makes me too tired to be angry anymore, haha! X

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  23. Beautiful photos, Acacia:)
    I can understand your worries about a new little sibling. We tend to get to used to life as we know it, and then when things change, it's odd. But I know the moment you see that little face, you'll feel a fierce protection for the new sibling God has blessed you with.
    (My aunt just had twins! Two baby girls named Helen and Eliza Jane<3)
    How has life been to you lately? I've had a really interesting few months. Life is full of struggles and surprises.
    I have been meaning to write to you for a while! Hopefully I can soon.

    Love you!

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  24. Dear Acacia,
    I agree that children are a great blessing and it's a wonderful learning experience for older siblings to help with the younger siblings, but you sound like you may be a bit depressed. You may want to consider that you may have too many responsibilities right now. Just because you are one of the older siblings does not mean that you are ready to shoulder a full adult load. I don't know how old you are, but if you are still a teenager, you need more sleep than an adult. Extensive night duty with a newborn baby may not be healthy for you, emotionally or physically. I trust that your parents are as concerned about your welfare as they are about the welfare of your younger siblings and will listen to you if you tell them what you need. Above all, don't feel guilty about your feelings. As my very godly parents always say, your feelings are what they are. We have to deal with them based on God's guidance, but it's not helpful to deny our true feelings. God wants us to see children as blessings, but that does not mean we have to be over the moon about each one.

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    1. I'm sorry if I've made my paragraph sound that way... I'm really not trying to deny my feelings, but rather put off having a bad attitude towards the baby's coming.

      Please: don't worry! The only reason I'd be awake in the night is because I'm sensitive to the sound of a baby's cry and therefore wake up at the sound of it. My parents would TOTALLY not make me have to stay awake with the baby in the night! My mum has assured me that I won't have to do a lot of extra work after the baby comes. There is no way my parents would want to put me under that kind of pressure/workload.

      I'm just naturally a very tidy, organized person and when another baby comes around... well, it's hard in that way. I admit: I'm a little picky. But I'm trying to lay down my human/sinful desires and accept God's desire for my life - not to be caught up in having a perfect life, but rather to live each day and take it as a gift, even if it doesn't go 'my' way.

      But anyway - thanks for your thoughts! :)

      -Acacia

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